Sunday, August 19, 2012

Sunday, August 5, 2012

The Wonder of You

I wanted you since before I knew of the possibility of you. I've dreamed of you. I loved you from the moment I knew of you. And you have fulfilled every wish, every hope. You are magic to me. I am grateful.
I've always known I wanted children. And I have been doubly blessed with you both. But all of my imaginings could not have come close to the wonder of you.  My desires for you were real, but the thoughts of you were so abstract. The reality is so fantastic I have trouble fathoming it. Believing it. I keep thinking every age, every stage is the best. I hope that continues. I feel I have more of a purpose now, being your mother. I know. That is not a PC thing to say. Not very strong feminist, to say being your mother gave me purpose. But it's true. There is a lot I want to do and accomplish. But right now there is nowhere else I want to be. Nothing else I want to do. I feel when you run to me I am right where I belong.

Saturday, August 4, 2012


When I see you playing together my heart swells with joy. Dreaming of the future bond you will have as brothers. Thinking of you loving and enjoying each other, being there for each other. I hope so much for you to have a special relationship.